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I'm not very good at naming things, and I'm feeling kinda lazy tonight. I'll leave the title to you.

An update on what's been happening. Well, exams ended a good week and a half ago, and I got the grades that I thought I would get. (Boring I know, but I had to say it.) My trip home was a little more exciting.

I left on a Thursday which was different from what I had originally planned. One of my exams was moved from Friday to Wednesday, so I got to come home early. YAY!!! The interesting thing was that I forgot to tell my parents that I was coming home two days early. My dad was shocked when I called and said that I was already heading home. We both agreed not to tell mom because we wanted to see her surprised look when I walked through the door. She didn't disappoint, since she almost tripped over herself while jumping up from the table to hug my neck. The actual trip was kinda uneventful, since I was following a storm front that was ravaging the landscape. I luckily left late and never saw a drop of rain. Home life has been kinda boring though.

There's not much to do at home. I can walk outside and pet the dog, feed the cat, scare the chickens, or stare at the goats, but that's about all I can do. I could drive somewhere, but I have no one to take with me or meet there. It's kinda nice to take it easy though. After this hellish semester, I'm glad to just do nothing. That doesn't mean there's nothing to be excited about though.

Chirstmas is just around the corner, and my family and I have a lot planned. The most exciting thing that's happening is that I'll be an uncle in a couple of days. YAY!!!! My sister is, as of now, two days over her due date, but I think my niece just understands the importance of making a grand entrance. I think that she's going to wait until Christmas day to be born. Which will be good because I can't really think of a better Christmas present. :) Until she's born, I'm stuck practising the piano, reading my textbooks for next semseter (not very exciting but oh well), or staring at inanimate objects.

I've been thinking about how to help other people embrace and take pride in their true selves lately. I guess it's because I'm an actual safe zone now that I'm giving it greater thought than what I normally would, but I think it's a good thing. My problem is knowing when to give someone space. I try to help someone so much that I make their problem my problem, and that doesn't help either of us. I know it's something that I have to work on, but I think I can learn to manage. I shared my story with someone yesterday because they asked for help. I'm not saying that my story is better than someone else's, but at least that person will know that they're not alone. I guess that's all I can do.

Well, I don't like to ramble, so I'll end here.

Hoping that You Can Make Sense of My Jumbled Thoughts,

Orpheon

A Depressing First Day Back and Piano

Ugh. Yesterday was atrocious. Despite that it was the Monday after Thanksgiving break, I woke up with an optimistic mindset. I thought that it was going to be a good day. Too bad life bitch slapped me back into reality. I went to my first class and discovered that I made a 64% on my exam for the sole reason that I'm a dumb ass, but it didn't end there. My next two classes also handed out exams which I made a 68% and a 77% on in that order and for the same reason. I'm a dumb ass. It wasn't that I didn't understand the material, I just didn't have enough time to practice before I took them. Thank you very much evening English class and bitchy math professor. Because of this, I have to work really hard on finals to salvage my GPA. Oh well, that's enough ranting about academics. XP

Oh wow, I just realized that I haven't really asked anyone how their Thanksgiving break was. That's very rude of me. I might of already asked Lan Chi, but I was too out of it yesterday to remember. Mei's undoubtedly was horrible, since she got stuck with her family. I should really put more time into my friends, but this semester seems to have just stolen all of my friendship time away from me. Too much work.

Anyway, I practiced the piano last night for relaxation. It worked as always. I think I stayed there for an hour and a half perfecting the only song I know so far. Maybe one day I'll be great, but I don't really care. I just enjoy playing. Speaking of playing, my parents bought a piano over break. It's a 5'3" baby grand, and I think it looks great. My dad wanted to learn how to play, and my mom has always secretly loved the piano; she never said anything because a piano is a lot of money. My dad has been practicing almost nonstop since we got it. He's starting from scratch too, so he still has a way to go before he can play anything other than introductory technical pieces. I'm just glad that he's found something that really interests him again. I know that staying at home all day doing the same routine over and over again must make you slightly crazy after a while, so I'm glad he has something creative to do.